Mourning to Dancing
Well, I thought I'd catch everyone up on my last post...since it was such a downer. I guess I kind of freaked some people out.

First of all, let me say thank you to everyone who has prayed for us, written us notes of encouragement, and gone out of your way to lesson the burdens that Amy and I feel right now. You are present evidence to us that the hoped for Kingdom of God within the Body of Christ exists. Your love in action will never be forgotten.

Second, let me say that things are bad. As a matter of fact, they are slightly more stressful as I have a 102 degree fever right now and our baby is scheduled to be born via C-Section on Thursday. And Amy has started showing the same symptoms as I had when the virus started. But I want to say that the last part of my previous post, that we know God is present in all this (even though He's hiding), is the stronger foundation for us. I would much rather be abandoned to Him (with all the confusion, mystery, and sometimes suffering that comes with it) than to have it all together and not be aware of His grace and love.

There are just moments where the only words in this love relationship with the Divine are ones of frustration and anger. Sometimes it's actually frustration and the joy of surrender. Amy and I have long enjoyed the old Lost Dogs' song "No Ship Coming In". It's kind of our marriage anthem. I'm so glad the Scriptures are full of such songs and prayers of complaint. Sometimes they are gleaming with hope and other times they are tarnished with fear and hopelessness...but they come from the same heart. They all seem to acknowledge the Absent Presence of the One who knows and loves.

Again...thank you for being the Body to us.
posted by Jimmy at 6:26 PM | |